Sunday 15 June 2014

What is what

Going through life transitions is a continuous occurrence in our lives. I'd like to think that when you reach these certain points in life, the people in your life that you have been growing with in all types of relationships, will be the people you could rely on most. To support you, encourage you and tolerate the new mindset/transitioning mindset that your now enduring.

But when that isn't the case, the easiest thing is to just cut them off right?

For me I've gone travelling, came back and now have had to pretty much start my life over, as I'm on a new career path and my goals have slightly altered.
Needing people to understand your emotions during this change, and how this effects your life completely is the most important thing in life to me right now, especially if you want to continue being in my life.

As much as I'm venting and not coming to a conclusion, its simply because I don't really have one.
This I call stage two. Of growing up, of becoming a woman and coming into my own. I don't think I can end this on a final note but a note of to be continued.  As that is just how it is right now.
Right now I know certain things and certain people are not permenant, which is probably one of the haunting aspect of this change.
I can't make people understand me, and I can't make them understand my pain and why certain things bother me the way they do (no matter how hard you try to explain to them) when it seems so simple for them to figure out. But I need to find a resolution .
There's one person I don't want to let go of, at least I think I don't. And there's one person I want to pursue more and have more of in my life. How to go through this is as puzzling as this whole entry.

To me I just sound confused, I know what type of result I want, but not knowing in other areas is what's changing the whole ball game.

My letter of a confused and transitioning woman.